Coming Home
I took upon this rare opportunity life had offered to explore Alaska. I told myself from beginning, not to expect anything specific from this trip other than coming home safely and I believed when the moments of serendipity presented themselves I would recognize. And I was right. The sensory encounter with the nature becomes metaphorical to the non-sensory resonance of the heart within. Looking deeper into myself or examining relationships with others were much easier and more revealing in the wilderness. The joy of discovery was immense.
However, it is also clear to me, what is my joy may be someone else’s misery since not all experiences were pleasant and people do not experience same event the same way. In Banff, a man refused to let me ride the cable car with his family demanding that I rode alone. In a national park, a plushy RV occupied the campsite I had just reserved while I was out looking for water. Eventually, I leant to handle situation nicely but with integrity and dignity. Traveling along, I could still ask for respect, not handout.
I made mistakes, wrong decisions or wrong turns, quite often but learnt quickly that ignoring my wrongdoing would not be an option if I wanted to come home safely. I was responsible for everything I did or did not do; I need to fix them and no one else to blame.
The journey is coming to an end soon but the impact will remain profound. I know I will not see this world and myself the same. I feel gratitude to people I met on the road who made this journey possible and friends and family back home whose e-mails reminded me I was not alone. They will be forever in my heart.
I took upon this rare opportunity life had offered to explore Alaska. I told myself from beginning, not to expect anything specific from this trip other than coming home safely and I believed when the moments of serendipity presented themselves I would recognize. And I was right. The sensory encounter with the nature becomes metaphorical to the non-sensory resonance of the heart within. Looking deeper into myself or examining relationships with others were much easier and more revealing in the wilderness. The joy of discovery was immense.
However, it is also clear to me, what is my joy may be someone else’s misery since not all experiences were pleasant and people do not experience same event the same way. In Banff, a man refused to let me ride the cable car with his family demanding that I rode alone. In a national park, a plushy RV occupied the campsite I had just reserved while I was out looking for water. Eventually, I leant to handle situation nicely but with integrity and dignity. Traveling along, I could still ask for respect, not handout.
I made mistakes, wrong decisions or wrong turns, quite often but learnt quickly that ignoring my wrongdoing would not be an option if I wanted to come home safely. I was responsible for everything I did or did not do; I need to fix them and no one else to blame.
The journey is coming to an end soon but the impact will remain profound. I know I will not see this world and myself the same. I feel gratitude to people I met on the road who made this journey possible and friends and family back home whose e-mails reminded me I was not alone. They will be forever in my heart.
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